strange day2

Jul 11, 2008

Today was different. First my 5 hour shift seemed very long. Like time slowed down. I saw many people I knew at work. Which is common sense it is a place everyone goes. But in my 3 months I haven't seen so many. Random people too. People I didn't know were also odd. One person thought I was someone else. Some random girl tried to play me or something. Said hi and acted like I forgot who she was. She knew me because of my name tag. Or I really did forget her which is possible. If she was someone I knew and wasn't playing me she was pretty and I would of met her after work. But it reminded me of the Simpson's where in high school some girls walked up to homer and said "Your cool homer simpson" Which Homer thought he had skills or something. When it was meant as a prank.
But she did choose me to prank which could at some level mean she was interested.

And every kind of sign you can imagine is pointing towards me moving. Its like being surrounded. I could stop one side but get hit by another. No win.

Or keep things at a stalemate which just prolongs getting hit.

What holds me back is fear confusion and doubt. And trying to honor my father's wishes which was to keep the house. But he is in the hospital and may not have a choice.

I was in this or a similar situation before. Where I tried to take care of a friends property. To keep everything as he left it as long as I could. But he never came back. And when he did he didn't stay long. If it were me I'd want everything as I left it saved. If possible. Which is why I'd keep things at a stalemate.

But I don't like that option. Its weird and probably doesn't make sense. My mind is a jumble I'm tired and need to be up Early. I was hoping to sleep in too.

Thanks to anyone who reads this. Hope your day was good.