2/26/08

Feb 26, 2008

I want to do it all. I want to be an artist I want to be a photographer, I want to be something that alot of people don't ever get to be. I honestly don't believe that it is or will ever be remotly possible for me to be any of these things. But then sometimes it feels like it's right in my reach I just don't go for it.
I think I'm stuck in a no where job.. Doing no where things. Why do I have to settle. Why have I allowed myself to get to the point of settling for this life that isn't what I wanted at all. Why is it so hard for some people to understand. Is it possible to be these things from anywhere? Can I honestly believe that soon I'll be able to go somewhere.
I have talent.. I know i do.. I have drive.. I just need to use it right?
It drives me crazy trying to think about how if I stop what I'm doing right now. How am I going to survive until something extraordinary starts.
Sometimes I think it might be easier if I didn't have these desires to do something amazing. Like so many other people.
How do I do it..