quarterlife - beingidle - New York, NY - United States

beingidle
Female • 25 • New York , NY • United States

Status... Single
Orientation... Straight
I'm into... Writing travel life curiousity of the un
I'm working on... trying to decide what to do with my life.

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Last on: 09/02/2008 PST

portfolio.

interests.

the unknown

,nothing intrigues me more then discovering the unknown. the unknown has so much to offer us.,

feelings

,i am determined to create a list of feelings and learn what they are,how they feel,how they make certain aspects of my body feel.,

love

,something i dont admit to may people,my obsession is to find and feel love.,

dance

,something i am scared and freaked out to do,for fear of judged,however it something i like to do because it takes you to an altered state,its like your one with the music,amazing feeling.,

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Aug 07, 2008 - 08:46 PM PST

beingidle

We all are destined to die, therefore we are all destined for doom.

Jul 29, 2008 - 07:39 AM PST

Brunkster

Then we are all fated for disaster. All roads lead to that Rome. If fate is the hand we're dealt, then destiny is what are meant to do with the cards.

Apr 18, 2008 - 07:34 PM PST

Hoffnungsloses

Sorry to hear about your grandma. Have fun in Europe, find a way to make it less catastrophic.

Apr 18, 2008 - 12:34 PM PST

Hoffnungsloses

Its difficult to live as an individual and still try to be a part of something. Dont find someone because everyone else wants you to, find someone because you want to. Being the person everyone can turn to is a painful thing because no matter how hard you want to do things for yourself you cant. Its also painful because you always feel rejected, put upon, and unappreciated. I have been through it too, the only way to get through it is find one person, a real friend, and trust them. There is always someone you can turn to.

Apr 07, 2008 - 07:06 AM PST

Hoffnungsloses

thats the problem. i know both he and i are right and the fighting inside me is driving me insane almost to the point of physical paralysis.

Mar 26, 2008 - 03:05 AM PST

Hoffnungsloses

i can totally feel you on the loneliness factor and having things that keep you up at night. i do have to say i am jealous of the traveling though. dont let people get to you. its hard to help people and never have the time to deal with yourself.

Mar 20, 2008 - 02:18 AM PST

Hoffnungsloses

i am disappointed. I hope this guy doesnt know you have a QL account.

Mar 05, 2008 - 08:22 AM PST

Hoffnungsloses

Stay, talk to him!

about me.

i am a 24 year old girl on a mission to discover herself. i was raised in suburban new jersey by my mom. my dads not really in the picture so we will leave this out of the story. my mother was very loving, and her family was extremely snide and callous, leaving me with a very black and white view of the world. i left the country at 18, constantly in search of finding the meaning of life, wanting to see everything and anything possible. At 21 I stopped because my mom was diagnosed with two types of cancer. at 23 she died.

a year has passed and i am in the process of figuring out who i am and where i want to go. i am applying to graduate school overseas but if that doesnt work out i'm upping and going without however much money i have and road shall be my new home.

the object of this experiment, is to rediscover feeling states. to rediscover who i am. to determine what is important to me. to relearn to love the amazing person that i am. in the end, i just want to shar