student body

Jul 18, 2008

So I pretty much watch a lot of shows made for teens even though I'm older than that. Anyways, there's this new show on the n called Student Body in which kids from two rival high schools are up against each other trying to lose weight. Well, last week was the first episode and we were introduced to the kids and I actually started bawling and had to pause the Tivo and go straight to my mom and hug her even though she had no idea why I was doing this. Well, there's this one guy named Chaz, and he had been visiting his mom at the hospital a few weeks before the show began (this being on tape). Well, she was hospitalized because she was extremely obese. The said their I love yous and he said he was going to lose weight on the show and come home and help her and the rest of the family to work out and lose weight. Anyways, he says goodbye because he's leaving the hospital and it goes to a black screen. Up come these white letters that tell us that a week or two before the show began, Chaz's mother died. He's just a teenager. I think he's 15. I started crying and I couldn't stop. I told hugged my mom and confused her but then told her why I was crying. When I came back to the tv, I saw him go to his mother's grave with his aunt.
This week, he made me cry again. All of the kids were shown a picture of what they look like now, and how they will look in 5, 10, 15, 20, or 25 years if they keep gaining weight at the rate they are going. Chaz's picture was for 25 years down the road. He looked at it and said that he looked like his mom and that he misses her and he cried, and I cried, and the host hugged him.

I can't imagine losing my mom. I just couldn't do it. I mean, I know that on all of the technical aspects, I could, but I would become so emotionally numb that I would hardly be able to function. I don't know how my mom survived losing her mom when she was 21... especially when her dad had died when she was 6 weeks old. I know it was a different time so she had already been working and closer to "on her own" at that point, but it was a few weeks before the hollidays, and it was her mother.