This one break up...

Mar 12, 2008

I know break ups happen everyday and your suppose to move on, but this break up seems to be destroying her. She's my best friends. I love her so much and care about her more than I care about myself. She's always there for me whenever I need her and now its time for me to be there for her. It's hard though...to watch deteriorate. To watch lose everything for this one guy. I'm loosing her completely and I really don't know what to do. She's turning invisible as we walk down the hallways. I have to watch her cry almost everyday. I have to watch her starve because she has no strength to eat anything. It's sad because I saw the break up coming but not like this. It was so random and mean. He did it like she wasn't a person. He didn't care for her or her feelings anymore. He's confused I get it, but you don't treat someone you were with for year, someone you told you loved repeatingly, someone who you lost your virginity together the way he treated my friend. Now, he's nothing to me. He doesn't exist at all. I can't stand having to walk near him, talk by him, and sit by him, but she forces us to try to all be friends again. She doesnt realize that he doesn't want that. She doesn't realize that he doesn't want anything to do with her. It's crazy how he told all of this to her face. That's terrible and I'm glad I wasn't there when he said this because I would've just freaked. All I can do is hold her, cry with, and be there when she needs me. All I can do is make her happy, make her stay healthy, and make my best friend again. That's all I want. I want her to come back. I don't want to have to worry about her everyday. I want her to be happy and him to be sad. I want her to see all the people around her who will always love her. But if I told her all of this I don't know if it would make her feel better or worst.