A poem sent to me with special meaning.

Apr 13, 2008

The following is a poem that I received the other day that was written by Grace Aguilar:

And, oh, how blessed is it thus to meet! To feel that vanished years have not estranged us, distance has not diminished love, that we are to each other even as we parted; to feel again the fond kiss, to hear once more the accents of a voice which to us has been for years so still,--a voice that brings with it the gush of memory! Past days flit before us; feelings, thoughts, hopes, we deemed were dead, all rise again, summoned by that secret witchery, the well-remembered though long silent voice. Let years, long, lingering, saddening years drag on their chain, let youth have given place to manhood, manhood to age, still will it be the same--the voice we once have loved, and deemed to us for ever still--oh, time, and grief, and blighted hope will be forgotten, and youth, in its undimmed and joyous beauty, its glow of generous feelings, its bright anticipations, all, all again be ours.

It was sent to me by a friend who felt that I would really understand its meaning. I have started to have these dreams about an old friend & missed opportunities. I am the Queen of bad timing & well it couldn't be worse now. But whenever I see this old friend, even though we know longer even consider each other friends for there was a falling out, we still end up in our old habits. There is something that draws us together & it is safe & familiar. And it makes me regret the past. Not sure what I am going to do about this, since it has been overwhelming my heart for some time now, but I have been reading this poem over & over again & every time it brings tears to my eyes. Tears of how true it is that we have these people in our life that no matter how much time or circumstance passes, we always will feel comfortable & connected to them and also tears of how bittersweet the situation is. There is a reason we no longer speak & aren't close & the more I analyze this the more I realize those reasons were petty & insignificant. But we are in different places now & maybe that is for the best. To be continued I suppose.