I'm not looking for sweet talk...

Nov 25, 2007

So, here I am - I found a blog site that I can finally keep just for this type of thing, and not feel too public.

We can consider this my first real blog, since my others have basically been for entertainment of others and not really myself - which is why most people blog these days, no? Anyway, I am vowing to use this blog as my own and only my own - my thoughts are mine, my words are mine (including any mispellings), and time is mine.

I'm not really sure how to start this, so I guess I'll just start. For about 3 years now, I've been stuck - in my mind, some would say. Stuck on the idea that life is supposed to be a certain way, work is supposed to be that way, and love is supposed to feel this way. For 3 years, I have been deceived. Life is so much more than it is, work is never going to be that way, and love is never that easy.

Even now - I categorize my being into 3 simple things. Maybe it's how I see this world - who knows...I would right? I found myself watching the short episodes of this show and during each one thinking about how my life looks nothing like that. Yes, I've been through some of the basic ideas behind what it means to be 25. Out of college, working a job where other people take advantage of you, and in a relationship you know is going nowhere. But really, I don't tend to think about those sorts of things as 'issue's in my current life. It's more like a right of passage for most 25 year olds to go through this, isnt it? Or am I just kidding myself to feel better about my situation?

Is it all just a way to get us to think about current situations or are 25 year olds truly in this 'tough' part of their lives. Do we really need another show telling us what we are supposed to be going through? Don't get me wrong, I love the show - it reminds me of all the situations I left behind when I graduated highschool and moved onto college. Yes, highschool. Their emotions seem so young - I don't think I see things in that same way that I used to at this age. I feel in the past 7 years, I've grown to be so much more realistic than the characters on the show are. Maybe I'm supposed to think I'm more mature and real than these characters - maybe that's what most 25 year olds think.

Lily