Apr 10, 2008

I got to talking with my buddy Kaleb today about safety nets...how hard they are to escape. I personally find some of them impossible. The enablers in your life, the parents who always clean up you mess, the girlfriends who always take you back, the bosses who never complain when you're late. If no one ever takes that net away from you, whose fault is it that you're not living to your potential? I feel like even if I tried, I could never be as strong and independent as I want to be, because I KNOW my parents will always be there to fix things. Even if I don't want to admit that, if I ignore their presence, and try to take responsibilities into my own hands, it's still in the back of my head. It feels impossible to change. Mike, another friend of ours, is as spoiled as they come. 25, no job, credit cards continuously paid off by mom and dad,etc. Most people think he's pathetic. I think it's sad...I feel like he's never even had the chance to take care of himself, to even try. In some way, I guess I'm grateful for the struggles I endure, the times when things are lost, and I have to dig my way out...they add such character. However, I still don't feel responsible for being so ill equipped to face things on my own.I guess you can't blame your parents forever, either.