Beauty and the Beast

Feb 22, 2008 - 05:16 AM PST
almost half my life, I've been battling the fact that people need beauty.people live for beauty, even if we held up our hands and say that we don't care about how we look or how we dress.but somehow, we will always sress on what appeals to us, and that appeal is the beauty of it.

another thing that im battling is how people look at beauty as something so specific.complexion, the size of your waist the lenght of your hips the cup of your bra.every matter counts.and i admit that i am suck in to that world where believing that i am not beautiful and no one would want me if i am not that specific beauty

here's a confession, i like to stare at couples in trains.not because i am jealous, but to see what beauty does the boyfriend see in his girl and vice versa.sometimes people get freak out by it, but they pretend that they dont notice that chubby girl standing in the corner with her dork glasses and the earphones on staring at them.

and i have people whistled to me at the sidewalk before.and somehow i feel ashamed, or disgusted, because these people are not the people i want my beauty to be admired.lorry drivers, construction workers, cleaners.call me snob or haughty but maybe i felt insecure that my beauty only falls to their standards.and maybe i was afraid that only people like them would want me.

maybe the beauty that i hold unleashes the beast in me where i judge people by their social standards when i prefer to be whistled by hot guys.

but the question still remained, what is beauty and where does beauty stands?is it in the eye of the beholder?then why is there that specific sort of beauty most people allow themselves to follow?is beauty an appeal of some sorts?or is beauty a mere word to judge people with?

what is this word that makes us hung to it like a need?like a drug thats too good to be let go?

then there will be that question, are we beautiful?
better yet, am i beautiful?

Beauty and the Beast

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Mar 22, 2008 - 10:14 AM

daffodilkris on
Even if I were whistled at by a hot guy, I don't know that I would prefer it. I think the less-than-hot guys will recognize the beauty within and the original beauty, not just the typical beauty that the hot guys will notice. I don't want to be another person in the crowd. Yeah, it would suck to be whistled at by a construction worker or whatever that whistles at anyone that has a vagina, but for the other guys, the ones that don't do it all too often... maybe it's ok if they're not as hot...