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Mar 10, 2008 - 14:58 PM PST
so as of right now i have no friends on this but i really just dont care. i am just so sick of having to keep everything to myself and this is where i'm just gunna let it out. the truth is i'm terrified. there is a huge possibility that i have a brain tumor and i am terrified. and its not the fact tha i could die that scares me, its what i would miss out on. and this is so cliche and i know it but its the truth. i'm scared that i'll miss finding my one true love and i'll miss out on having a life. but really what i am scared of most is missing out on my chance to make a difference. i know that i am ment to make a difference and that i'm ment to do something in the world and to help people. and i'm really scared that i wont be able to do that. i dont know, this all could be just because i had the doctors appt. yesterday but it really feels good just to let it out. so if anyone does end up reading this, thanx for listening, and wish me luck when the results come in.



---Lizz

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Mar 12, 2008 - 17:30 PM

justierox on
Stay strong hun , I really hope everything turns out for the best :-\
Mar 10, 2008 - 21:10 PM

nessy on
Wow, thanks for sharing that, even though it's not fun or easy stuff. Who can ever say the right thing at these times? Well, that said, I truly hope you can make a difference and have purpose...
Mar 10, 2008 - 17:36 PM

Streetsydepoet on
Good luck, ma'am....I understand what you are going through. I know people always say so, but indeed I do. I also know what youre family is going through. Last year, I had a cancer scare. I thought I had colon cancer, and I was on pins and needles awaiting the result. It turned out to be nothing, but that ordeal really opened my eyes. And to top that, my mom has a terminal illness, for which there is no cure. Add to that the fact that 5 friend of mine passed away in the last year (3 were shot, 1 drowned, and 1 had a skiing accident), and I guess you could say I've been through quite a bit. All I can say is to stay strong, and never lose hope. Hope all turns out to be well. ~SSP~