I'm falling the fuck apart

Feb 18, 2008 - 21:27 PM PST
I'm posting this here because its the only place I know I don't have any friends from school on.

I feel like I'm falling apart. I'm having panic attacks over literally nothing. No triggers, no nothing, but before I know it I'm clawing the shit out of my arm or crying or...I don't know! I'm scared shit less. I'm on Medication, but it doesn't seem to be working. I've been taking Xanax for it but I'm afraid I'll become a fucking addict! I mean, how the hell can I even tell?!

I mean, I don't know whats causing this and that scares me the most! If I had a reason, like colleges, or David was still living here, or some one died, then I think I could some how fucking stomach this whole mess but nothing bad has happened so I fucking can't! I can't figure out why the hell this is happening!

I'm seeing my doctor again on Thursday. Look, I know medication takes time but I'm afraid of what I'll do to myself.

I'm falling the fuck apart


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Feb 24, 2008 - 20:19 PM

lindsaynf on
hey, i just read this, and i can't find any updates. how are things going? i've had to deal with depression/anxiety, and my mom had so many mental problems, so just have hope. that's the most important thing. medication does take time, and the doctor should help too. i guess, i just got worried reading your blog, so let me know how things are. if you don't, that's cool, just know i'll be praying for you.