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Jan 27, 2008 - 18:54 PM PST
i dont really know what i'm going to write now, cause it feels really weird. so why use a title?

Saturday night my mom called my cell after a killer 8h work shift... it was around midnight and i was heading downtown to party with two friends.

she simply said "i dont know how to say this, so there it is: your grandma died."

way to kill the party.

anyways, i felt kinda sad for a few minutes but then i was okay.

now that i think of it it's not the fact that my grandma died that really disturbs me, it's the fact that it doesn't disturb me itself. quite a nutcracker since i'm no psychology doctor.

so i went to the funeral from thursday through saturday and it was even more boring than i expected. at least my cousins were there so i had an excuse not to spend my time with countless older people that i barely know asking me the same questions about how am i doing in school and if i have a girlfriend.

so anyways, some people said i was an emotionless selfish person because i always carry that pokerface at funerals.
i didn't know what to answer at the moment so i kept going on with my pokerface.
i think if i had thought of that one earlier i would have probably said something like "who isn't selfish anyways!"

the good part is: i saw my cousins again =)

-deeds

untitled 'cause titles are overrated.


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Jan 27, 2008 - 19:04 PM

bergenick on
I wonder what is the percentage of people that were on the funeral who were really sincere in their mourning. I mean at least you are honest, I don't think you should feel bad for not feeling sad because of your grandmother's dead seriously. And what is the point of calling you selfish, there is nothing to do, and acting sad wont change anything.