understanding

Do people really know how I feel, or do they just pretend. Do they understand what I'm going though and what I'm thinking. Everyone thinks they do and it really annoys me. I graduating high school this year and everyone tells me how excited I should be, but I'm not. Excited is the farthest from my mind. Scared and sad are the two that come to mind first. What if college isn't for me, what if I fail. I's scared that I'll do bad or turn into a partying monster. I'm sad because noe of my friends will be nearby. I know I'll meet new ones eventually but I don't open up easily. I guess you could call me shy. I don't want any pity, I just want people to understand, it's not easy to transition like this. I want people to know that as graduation day nears I'll be crying more and more.