Compromising

Jun 10, 2008

so ive done something tonight. something im feeling maybe i wasnt ready for. i compromised myself! i did exactly what he asked me too! and i think by doing what i had not been ready to either do or deal with i have compromised everything i believed in. i wasnt ready! i knew that the entire time but i felt like once i was there i couldnt back out! i run away from all of my problems! i fucking back out all the fucking time and i thought this time i was going to stay! i was going to stick with it and by doing so i feel ridiculous! i think this might have been the right time to run, to back away....but im so idiotic i didnt see it! now ive lost a part of me i can never ever get back and thats no ones fault but my own.......