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Mar 25, 2008

Well, this is the first entry into qlife. Not sure how this whole process works but I will probably use it for my random babblings.

I recently got engaged and am very excited except for the constant nagging in my head that tells me that he doesn't quite think of marraige like I do... forever. It's not until I change my mind or until things get to hard...it's forever. I know he loves me and I know he would like to believe we will be together till death do us part but is my idea of forever insane in this day and age? I see my parents who have been through it all and have stayed together for 32 years! My siblings are all married and happy. Is it too much to expect out of one person these days? We have been together for 5 years and I would like to believe that marriage is still a committment for life not just a contract with terms and conditions.

I understand that you can't expect to get all your needs from one person, that's why we needs friends. Women need other women and men need other men so they can act like their gender without being censored...not sure if this is making sense. For example, I can't find a scrapbooking buddy (yes I like scrapbooking, shut up, lol) or movie goer in my boyfriend so my girls make up for that. My boyfriend needs his buddies to relax and just be one of the guys and I can't fullfill that for him.

I do believe though that he does want it to be forever but it's hard for him to understand forever. His family has been through divorces and through some hard issues and I think when that happens it is hard to believe in forever when nothing to this point has shown it to work.