Hipster Scumbaggery and Incredible Brokeness

Aug 07, 2008

Hey y'all... This summer is ALMOST OVER (finally!) Tonight, my parents are driving into town to see the shows this weekend, and Saturday we open "Love's Fire" (if you're in Cleveland PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COME SEE IT! Saturday 2 PM and Sunday 7 PM!), then Monday after my shift at strike ends at 1, I am OUT of here. For two weeks, at least... I can't tell you how happy this makes me. It's not that I don't love being here, but it's going to be so nice to decompress at home and not have any real obligations (and to not pay for cigarettes, haha!)
As you can probably tell from my new picture (yes, I'm THAT vain, thankyouverymuch), I have turned into a hipster scumbag! Big hair (I used product), knock-off Ray Bans, listening to music you've never heard of and EVERYTHING! I like it. I like who I am. I am beginning to like the way I look again, LOVING my hair being long enough to pull back, and things are generally awesome.
I just really wish that my "best friend" would pick up her fucking phone. We spend so much time together during the school year, and she's only 20 minutes away this summer. I haven't seen her at all, and I've heard virtually nothing from her. It weirds me out.

I have goals for this next semester that I hope I can fulfill. We'll see how all that works out in four months, though...

Usually whenever I pack up all of my crap, I feel like a total consumer whore because I have so much... Stuff. Y'know, it's not really useful but I don't throw it out, so it sort of accumulates. However I have recently started selling off some of my things on the internet, because I'm totally broke. Well, alright, not TOTALLY, but I have probably about $40 to my name, not including $30 in cash. I don't have any more money coming in, I don't have a job secured for next semester (hell, I don't even have loans to pay for classes secured for next semester!) so I'm maybe a little bit desperate.
It has made me realize just what I do and don't need to do on a regular basis because it costs an obscene amount of money in the long run. Earlier this summer I went and bought myself some new clothes, because my old ones no longer fit - they're too big. I combed sale racks, and only bought what I thought was necessary and versatile, so that's not at all what I regret. What I realize is the problem is how much I go out to eat or get coffee somewhere or buy cigarettes or alcohol or whatever. I don't need that stuff to be happy and have fun with friends... It's a mystery as to why I have spent so much time and money worrying about that, when what I should've been worrying about was time and money. Irony? Don't remember the exact definition, but I'm guessing it is.

Time to go back to packing - hooray!

Before I do, I should use more parentheses and ellipses. What do you think?