DTASC EVE [[and stressed as hell]]

April 25, 2008

so tomorrow is DTASC, along with many other things that i wish i could do.
like go to the carnival, go to the birthday party, hang with friends.... but no.
i get to act in front of hundreds of schools in an outfit that i cant even breathe in and be around people that i cant stand and lines that i hate saying.
yes, this week i might have been socially deprived, and i might have gone a little bit out of my head, but thats life.
"Just deal with it Shannon!" well its damn hard!
i could really use some cheering-up right now, but unfortunately no soul even wants to be within 5 feet of me right now, so im kind of screwed.

well on a different front; i have probably found a couple more guys to obsess over before the school-years end.
alex- i hang out with him, hes a junior, has a lot of my same interests. VERY nice =]
sunglasses man- dont even know his name. but i have seen him a lot, and he smiles whenever i am around him. i think that's a good sign =]
william- have known him since first grade, and his birthday was wednesday and i havent gotten him anything yet, which makes me sad. VERY NICE, POLITE, AND A BIG GENTLEMAN =] i think that those are admirable qualities, dont you?
and the smae old zachary mellon- the one that i have been writing about that i am still hung up on, and cant get over for my life. we got really close to talking today at MCD's this morning- he looked me straight in the face when i walked through the door, and smiled. that made me feel a little better about our past, and maybe our future. idk. i will just have to wait and see.