Female • 20 • Chattanooga , TN • United States
I'm into... Writing Photography Music Art
Music
- ,I listen to so many different genres. I can listen to heavy metal,followed by something folk or blue grass,followed by something rap followed by something indie or alternative. I listen to anything and everything good.,
Film
- ,Movies are getting to the point where they're either all remakes or based off a book. And the based of a book isn't so bad. It's the remakes and the movies that look like remakes but they claim to be otherwise. No one has original ideas anymore.
But other then the lame movies out there.
I love United States of Leland,Signs,28 Days Later,Nightmare Before Christmas,Fight Club,Transformers,300,all the Xmen (ok I know those last 3 were based off of things but I am a geek and love all of,
Books
- ,College is a sad institution that wants you to learn and be well educated but it takes up so much of your time the only thing you have time to read is your books from classes. The last book I read was Fight Club and that was....a little over half a year ago.,
Artists
- ,Edvard Munch,Justin Furstenfeld,and my best friend Rachel Karr,
I'm finding out who I am everyday
Where do I go from here?
Jan 30, 2008
My name is Teale.
I have nothing figured out.
I’m currently in school.
I’m taking 12 credit hours so that I don’t lose my moms health insurance.
I’m taking classes to head me towards a degree in Criminal Justice. But I don’t think that’s really what I want to do.
I don’t know what I want to do.
I’ve changed my mind so much in my life who knows.
I think I want something for certain but then I think “Oh but what about this?” Or I get tired or bored with whatever I thought I wanted.
I don’t know. I just feel like these classes are wrong for me. This direction is wrong for me.
Nothing has worked. In high school I was positive it was being a cop and going to the FBI. I start college and I thought I wanted to go into media. But no I didn’t want to do that. So then I switched back to the whole cop thing. Then a few weeks ago I started considering this idea of like sports and health medicine or something like that. But now I’m just like…I really don’t know.
I have no talents. I am mediocre in all that I do. I love taking pictures, but I’m not good enough to make a living. I absolutely love writing. But once again I don’t think I’m that good…and what happens to my career when I have writers block? I used to dream and dream of singing in a band. But I won’t even sing in front of my boyfriend.
What do I want to do?
What SHOULD I do?
What was I MADE to do?
Maybe that’s it. Maybe it’s not about what I want to do. Because really what I want to do is magically be filthy rich and not have to DO anything.
Maybe it’s about what I can do, should do, and was made to do.
But that still doesn’t help me.
Because I still don’t know what that is.
And I feel like my time is running out.
Because now I can’t stop taking classes or I’ll have to start paying back my student loan…which I can’t do. But I can’t keep going with classes because I need a direction or I’m just wasting my time in classes I don’t need.
This semester already sucks.
Maybe I should just be a happy little housewife whose job is to cook and clean and take the kids to soccer practice.
I hate cleaning. But I do love running errands.
I’m so lost.
01/30/08 17:54 PST
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