The Frustration

May 8, 2008

AHHhh....I'm kind of freaking out right now. I just had a huge conversation with a buddy of mine about the business we are in. He works for a competitive company and he used to be employed with the company I am currently with. He basically just told me that everyone thinks we are a joke and that I am never going to get any respect in brokerage community as long as I am there. Awesome. So now what? Well this is a tough question and here is why. My parents have been helping me out, a.k.a. supporting me for the last year and a half because I am following something I really want to do. Well we set a deadline that I have until December to gt my shizzy together and start paying my bills and making my life work like it should for a 24 yr old man. After talking to my good friend, I feel like it's been all a waste. There has always been a lot of turnover in out company and I have always wondered why. Well I'm starting to understand the answer, and it is a terrile feeling. I am a very loyal person, and because this is my first "real" job I am loyal to who I work for and I feel it I should defend the company. But really should the company be defended? So far there have been alot of empty promises and a lot of disappointment, until very recently. Last week I closed my first deal and this week I have been working on closing 2 more. So now what? I feel like I am in such an akward position. Do I search for something better, and "restart" all over again? Or do I fight it out for a minute and see what happens with my current company? My life has been posed with a ton of questions at the moment. Work, Relationships, family, Ohio, or FL, and it all has to be decided in about 7 months. So much can happen in 7 months, but 7 months is also nothing. I'm soooooooo freaking lost right now. What should I do? I know a few people read these, but I have no friends on quarterlife, so if your read this please comment on this because I could always use suggestions to help me choose a path.

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