Its difficult to live as an individual and still try to be a part of something. Dont find someone because everyone else wants you to, find someone because you want to. Being the person everyone can turn to is a painful thing because no matter how hard you want to do things for yourself you cant. Its also painful because you always feel rejected, put upon, and unappreciated. I have been through it too, the only way to get through it is find one person, a real friend, and trust them. There is always someone you can turn to.