Keep doing what your doing. For you. I am of the thought that things happen for a reason. Perhaps past you bought the car so new you could use it. If you have it use it. You are seeking what you need. God gives us the tools we need to make a difference. I am in the process of learning what I have and where to use it. What I am finding is where I am is where I am needed. Which is also teaching. A part of me wants to say avoid those who don't understand the new you yet. You don't want to go back there yet there could be something to learn from what keeps coming back up. You are the same person (to them) looking at the world in a different way. What would you from a year ago say to a friend who is like you now?