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Mar 14, 2008 - 08:10 AM PST

So this is not usually a topic that is spoken about in mixed company, but it's on my mind, and I always talk about what's on my mind, so screw it. Whoever reads this, reads it. Whoever doesn't, doesn't. And I was planning on posting this before I had friend requests from two guys, so welcome to my blog, beware!

Anyways. Here goes. I have been on the pill since I first went away to school in 2002. Not such a big deal since I would think that lots, if not most, girls in college are on the pill. Of course, if you've read my previous blogs, you probably realize that it was pointless. But it wasn't because I was not on the pill for that purpose. I was on it because of too much pain that "time of month." Over the past few years though, I've realized that I get massive menstrual migraines. And not like one a month. More like 3 or 4. So I probably started to cycle through 2 or 3 years ago. (If guys are reading or girls are reading that don't know, it means taking the pill for multiple months before the week off that allows menstruation. The equivalent of the brand Seasonale.)

Here's the bad part. In August, I turned 23 and lost my insurance. I finished up the pills I had and was able to get samples from my doctor, and I had some of an old prescription from when I had changed prescriptions, but now, for the first time in five and a half years, I'm not on the pill. Technically I could have paid a hell of a lot of money out of pocket to go to my doc without insurance and paid a hell of a lot of money for the prescription, or I could have gone to Planned Parenthood and it probably would have been more affordable, but I didn't. Instead, I decided to find out what it's like to not be on it. I have nothing against the pill, how could I? I was on it for 5 and a half years. But now I'm like expecting it to happen any time because supposedly it gets all wacky when you come off the pill. And I wasn't on a "normal" schedule so I don't know if my body's gonna decide to wait only a month or wait the usual three, or what?

Yeah, so I did this because I'm wondering if the "too much pain" is still there. Plus, technically, I didn't have menstrual migraines when I was younger, so this is a test to see if it's better or worse. I mean, if there's pain, but no migraine, I think I'd be able to handle it with meds and stuff. But my migraines are so difficult to handle and take prescriptions and they keep deciding to fail after x amount of time so I need to change prescriptions. And without insurance to see a doctor, it might be easier if it's pain I can handle otherwise. Of course, my migraine meds are something that we have managed to get free from the manufacturer (both the daily meds and the as needed meds).


So a blog that's for half the population to read, understand, get, and even then it's still a why the hell did I actually post that? Fun times.