About a boyyy

Dec 16, 2007 - 14:39 PM PST

Hey everyone---

Unfortunately, most of my blogs will be about the guy I like. The guy, you ask? My best friend EVER, Jason. Mmm...he's the reason I wake up in the morning, go to school, try to ace my classes-its all for him. I've loved him ever since 8th grade (a.k.a. last year). I've told him I like him, but I'm not gonna go as far as telling him I love him yet. He recently went out with my [ex] best friend, Sarah. We've been best friends since last year (big surprise right? It seems everything happened last year). When I found out they were going out, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Before then, I'd kept him in kind of a Amy love prison (I have no idea how to put it anyway else). We always talked, texted each other, walked each other to our classes, etc. We were the exact definition of a best friend. I just wish one day, it can be more. Anyway, I realized when they started going out, that I couldn't keep my life like that forever. It was perfect, and it seemed Sarah had shattered that perfectness. I tried to be happy for them; after all, I had gotten rejected by both of them. The sad thing is that Sarah knew how crazy in love I was with him. But she still went out with him anyway. That hurt the most. Well, it turns out she cheated on him two or three days after he asked her out. TWO DAYS and with, who else but her ex, Dan. She told me he kissed her, and she kissed him back, which translates into--"I made out with my ex". She even told me she was still into him and everything. I wasn't really shocked. She acted, talked, and dressed like a slut. She even called herself a whore. The only reason her ex dumped her was cause she wouldn't have sex with him. WHOOPS, I got off topic. They went out for a little more than 2 weeks. The day he asked her out, she asked me if she should dump him. What could I do? I wanted nothing more than to have Jason to myself again. I said yes. I didn't tell him about it though. I wanted him to enjoy his freedom while he could. I know it sounds terrible, but its the truth. I really did try to make it work for them. But eventually Sarah pushed me over the edge toward the end. We got into a HUGE fight that basically ruined any chance we had of a friendship. She ended up breaking up with him for the reason of she didn't wanna fight with me anymore....stupid whore...I told him he could blame it on me, even though I really didn't think it would be fair, but I was his best friend after all. That's basically the whole story (with the appropriate parts edited out). And now? I'm on better terms with Jason than before, but Sarah and I are over. That's it for now, cause I'm emotionally drained from typing all that. Later!

<333 Amy