Alone

Mar 17, 2008 - 09:53 AM PST

So lately I've been feeling like I'm alone in the world, like i have no one to turn to. In order to understand how weird this feeling is, i guess understanding that me and my mother are freakishly close, there's not much about me she doesn't know. I have a great boyfriend who tries really hard to be there for me. and great best friends who always let me know i have shoulder to cry on. In the past few week however, my grandmother had a stroke, my best friend got grounded and my speech has been pilling on assignments on me like there's no tomorrow. Is this where the feeling comes from? Is this how my body's reacting to extreme stress? maybe. my mom's never home cuz she goes to the rehab to make sure my grandmother has everything, everytime me and my best friend talks all she wants to do is vent about her problems (which is fine, but i just want someone i can talk to), my bf is away at school and we barely talk when we do its "hi, how was ur day, blah blah blah". Lately I can't have a regular conversation of substance with anyone. the only person who noticed something was really wron with me is this friend of mine who lives in Jersey now.

but i'll be fine. i always am
(anyday now i'm gona start believing that)