and the girl says...

May 09, 2008 - 14:50 PM PST

... cant tame my inhibitions

can't understand this condition

if i had one word to describe it

i think it'd be
>>
fear



not fear of what they say or think

and not of what they make of me

i've already walked down this rode of

inner self
>>
reflection


they already gave a diagnosis

depression and insecureness

but doctor, doctor

cure me from this thing we call
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self hate


Jesus loves me

did u know?

i'm reminded
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everyday



preach and preach

the same sing song story

while i sit in my chair

reflecting my story

of a little girl so bruised

even Cover Girl's best product

couldn't cover up

these scars on her
>>
soul


a mask

i wore

for 8 long years

a 5 foot

badass

tough

boyish
>>
reject


they all want to say

look how cute she is

and ignore the blood on her hands

so they do ignore

and the turn away

knowing they had the soap

to help me clean up

all
>>
along


sorry if im a little confused

for not understanding why

people ignore hurt people

when the cure is as simple as a
>>
"hi"

i'm not so much as bitter

as i may be frustrated

but as soon as i figure out

why people are so

inhuman

then i can break the cycle

of looking past the

little girl

who tries to paint over

the hurt

when all she needs
>>
is love