Boiler part 3

Feb 12, 2008 - 01:20 AM PST

I'm scared of many things. I just had the boiler fixed this morning. Good as I have been paranoid abotu whether it has been dangerous since it broke down and was kind of fixed by the neighbour. The landlady organised it and this person seemed much more professional than the other ppl who have come to do the yearly service. It seems like my landlady will pay for this, which although good, is also a bit frustrating as I could have done this the other years when I thought I needed to pay myself and so put it off and was scared about who would come and do it... would they be good enough and would they be overly priced? I guess its just one of those things that is maybe a bit harder when you are in a diff country and not sure of the rules...most people here have to pay for it themselves. I'll find out for sure if i am charged when I move out at the end of the month, and will see if I get my deposit back.

I'm off work today because I felt quite ill yesterday evening. I feel better today, but still have a sore throat and dont feel quite right. I feel a bit guilty as its not like I have a fever or anything. I am hardly ever off work, but was for nearly a week before Xmas because I had the flu. I guess on one side I think its good to have a day off and take care of myself, but on the otherside well I dont know... Maybe its the moving stress... but at least theres nothing I can do about the moving today, as everything is more or less in place. But I think that too often in the past couple of years, (maybe longer than that,) that these things get too much for me all too soon, rather than just going through the things and after resting. Its like I lose the energy too soon. For instance, this time with the moving... yes it is a lot, but even so I have planned quite well and there have been diff stages, as in not like Ive had to do everything in one weekend. I guess the dragging out of things can be exhausting too. I do feel like I just want to be out of my flat now. I also suppose that no matter how much one things that they have thought things over

I'm also still scared about illnesses and dying stuff. Just have to say that, as that has been something that has come to the surface again.

One thing I do need to do is take my shoes in to have insoles put in them. At the time I bought them on friday, I was in a hurry as my one pair of shoes that I have left here had broken. It was a shame that it only half came accross my mind at the time that they might be able to do insoles there... As they said though they can do something now, it would have been better for them to have made them like that from the beginning. (I have one leg a bit shorter than the other). I am now trying to decide whether I should order another pair of shoes while I am here. As in these are spring shoes and I know I def need sandals for the summer as last year I didnt wear any because could not put my insoles in there. However, was also thinking about some boots or covered shoes... But obviously it is all very expensive... Then there is the thing that if I go to a diff osteopath in England they may say that I should not have insoles, or they should be more or less. So once you have them in the shoes they are of course fixed... and as they are expensice natural type shoes well it would be a waste...Yet, my most recent insoles were very uncomfortable towards the end...and would be so much better to be part of the shoe... Hmm... decisions... I guess I could order the sandals at least as I will prob not get a diff diagnoses before the summer...

I wish doctors etc sould agree on some things, like whether to wear iunsoles or not as well... I find with all of these alternative medicines as well as 'normal' medications, that I am in the end kind of diagnosing myself as I am the one choosing which opinion to follow. This could be a good thing, but it is also hard when its not always easy for me to relax and think about what I need or what would be best for me and my body!