Dark, Alone, and confused

Aug 25, 2008 - 00:12 AM PST

It creeps up like a bug feeding on your flesh... life.

It's funny how as we grow we find that we know jack shit about the world. Imagine if you could see yourself from others eyes.

What would you think of yourself?

It is amazing the effect that actions can have on others. We think that we are operating the way we are supposed to and than we come to find a hammer the size of the Olympic stadium coming down upon our head. The drastic realization of how you treat others is paralyzing. We just don't see the impact of our actions until it is too late.

Our family is our support, whether or not you know it. That family doesn't have to be biological it is who ever is willing to deal with your shit no matter what. They are there to teach you the hard lessons when no one else will.

It is said over and over again, but it needs to be reiterated until it gets jammed into our thick skulls. WE TAKE OUR LIVES FOR GRANTED. What we have, who we have, and the life we have. The biggest mistake one could make is to not realize the good things we have. The darkness tends to be easier to focus on than the good. The good thingssmother it until it is forgotten. That is when you know you are on the brink. A simple unavailing is all it takes to realize what you have.

Past, present, future are all unknown. No matter how much we can say we understand the past we never will. For the reason that we can never truly understand the thought process of who we were. All we can hope is that the person we used to be doesn't conflict with who we are in the present because if they do than that means we have learned nothing. Each day there is unlimited amounts of information to learn and amazing things to realize from even those closes to us.

It's scary when you realize you were pushing those closest to you away and you didn't even know it.