Dear 2007...yes im writing you a letter

Jan 03, 2008 - 00:38 AM PST

Dear 2007,
This is your reflection. I mean it's 3:00am, what else should I be doing besides writing a letter to a year that had past 3 days ago. Every New Years (yes that only day where I make huge plans each year and they never work out) while I'm sitting home I tend to reflect on what happened through out the year.
Let's see 2007 what guy issues did you bring me. Well there was Aaron, what a pain in my ass. So I met him in 2006, so you're not to blame completely. Well once april/may rolled around Aaron and I started seeing each other again...for the 3rd time? Not sure, I lost count after all the fights and whatnot. So I completely fell for him and the last day of school we layed out in the grass of his dorm and I cried, and we promised we would miss each other and all this bullshit. Then after his mom came, we packed his stuff and along with his stuff he packed my heart for that summer and threw it into the trash can when he got home. Just like that birthday card I made him probably. The beginning of the summer we talked a lot until Christine came back into his life, and since (although they're not together anymore) it hasn't been the same. I still convince myself I don't like him...who are you kidding?
Then there was you're random summer flings, none of which were significant. I gained a friend out of it however. I guess that's what happens when you're completely trashed at your friends wedding (whom is 20 years old) and you happen to catch the bouquet. I didn't know by catching those flowers that I would end up falling for the guy who caught the garter (HOW CLICHE!). Well that was a mistake. He was looking for exactly what his cousin Danny was looking for that married my friend Mikky, LOVE, and he wasn't finding it here. We're really good friends now so I guess I'm glad I made a fool out of myself diving for the flowers the dancing like a drunken idiot with the kid.
I came back to school after that summer as a Junior in college, and fell again...the Aaron kind of fall. Except this time it was for a FRESHMAN! Thanks to my friend Steph who insisted I met this guy who was a total sweetheart. She was right, unfortunately. At first I couldn't stand him, I guess I wasn't use to a guy chasing me so hard and me playing hard to get. I usually make it the other way around, because I'm a stupid girl looking for love in all the wrong places. Although, he had been the one chasing, the roles flipped of course, and all I got out of it was another friend. Just like the rest of them. I'm convinced something just switches in me and it drives guys away...oh yeah I know what it is! I show them I care too much...DAMN YOU MADDIE FOR NOT BEING AN UPTIGHT BITCH!!
Then there came this kid from across the street. I was like finally 2007, we're going to end this year right and bring in the new year with someone that actually likes me for who I am. WRONG...most controlling guy ever. I actually hopes he reads this, he is the one the showed me quarterlife so I could blab about how shitty my life could be sometimes. Anyways, things were fine at first, he's funny, witty, creative and smart (i like the brainy ones). However, he's jealous, controlling, and selfish (oh wait or thats what he called me). So I finally act different with him than I did with most guys, I didn't care as much, atleast I didn't show that I did. PS to all you ladies out there if a guy flips out on you for not doing something his way or because maybe you sent a stupid little text message 2 seconds after they said goodnight to you...get rid of it while you can. I don't think I've ever been yelled at for such a stupid hypocritical thing in my life. I'm glad it's over with. Besides, he didn't like any of the same music as me...which my mom always says is the first thing you should find out. If they don't like the same music as you, it's no good.
So here we are 2008, no boy situations yet...besides the ones that I still can't get over and they know who they are.
Then there are those friend situations, you know win some lose some deal. I don't want to get into too much detail about it because guys come and go, but friends shouldn't. I have a theory that maybe some people come into your life at certain times to make you realize things or prove what real friends should be like. My real friends are amazing and thanks to the ones that left, I appreciate them more. I met a girl over the summer that was interested in joining my sorority. Now I see why. She's only interested in greek life, or maybe just one particular guy in it. Ever since she started going out with her boyfriend from last year...I haven't spoken too her. We became close friends after summer but she introduced me to someone that became a closer friend. I think that's just one of those incidents where someone comes into your life to show you something else. One of my best friends that I lived with last year, and still do this year...although I wouldn't call her a best friend anymore I lost to a guy as well. What is with guys coming in and taking friends away!! She only cares about him anymore and it's sad. She taught me so much, I think she made the stronger person that I am today. It's sad we can't be close anymore but maybe she'll realize that. Another good friend from last year had stopped talking to me after a bad situation that we had my junior year. I wish she would be a more honest straight forward person. I can see us being friends again, but no one that I would trust telling things to. I learned from this you really shouldn't talk shit about people behind their backs if they're your "friends" because they'll find out...and I'm not saying that I was the one doing the talking. But if you do this when you need them most, they wont be there for you.
I noticed 2007, that I'm only talking about your bad times. Maybe I had more of those then good times that I remember...