hot damn.

Apr 07, 2008 - 21:10 PM PST

swiftly moving through the motions. releasing all, yet somehow keeping so much inside.
we walk, we skip, we smile; and everyone believes it.
we think we've gotten away, and that all is well.. all is clear, and still thoughts continue to linger, and haunt, and weigh you down.
gasping for breath and always waiting for that one, solitary moment in the day where you can just throw it all out.
"if it's released," you think, " i won't have to feel this ongoing pressure in my breathing."

people always seem to want to fill some sort of void, wether it be a friendship, or a lover. but no one ever reaches that spot, that place crept away that everyone can't get to. i never feel like anyone can simply sit there and just listen, no strings attached. and as much as i would like to have strong everlasting strings attached, no one creeps into that space. no one ever makes me feel like they'll hang around for a while and that they're really there for me and there is a deeper understanding than any other between the two of us. i envy those who have that, everyday.

but for now, and in my mind, for always, i think that place will be crept away. and i will smile every time i look at my companion.
as silly as it sounds, those are the best of times. the moments when i can just enjoy my pitty, with no judgement, no comments, just comfort and complete honesty. they never lie, they never laugh; they simply listen and look at you for eternity.