i want to run

May 24, 2008 - 08:21 AM PST

I want to run. I have always wanted to run and I can't even remember when I didn't want to run. It's strange though because I don't have a terrible life. My family is dysfunctional but atleast they are there. I have a great fiancee who would do absolutely anything for me. He even told me that if I really wanted we could move far away, and he doesn't want anything to do with it but will do it for me. I don't know why I want to run. I feel so trapped like I am stuck in a neverending cycle of nothingness. I want to do good for someone other than myself and I do try I tutor kids and am part of the committee for relay for life, but I feel as if it doesn't matter whatsoever. So in conclusion I still want to run and don't think that feeling will ever go away.