I'd Rather Not Be In Hell.

Dec 21, 2007 - 16:31 PM PST

So yesterday, I almost beat the crap out of my sister. Then I fought with Lilian and told her I didn't want to be in the house. When I came home today, as soon as I walked in the door she told Heather that "being removed wasn't a threat, it's a promise". HA! She's said that before, she can't keep a promise.

Yesterday my uncle got in a car accident, he was driving a semi. He's okay and surprisingly, no one was hurt. But he had to get stitches in the back of his head and he'll be off work for awhile. This uncle by the way (Dale) is the only one who seems to understand what I'm going through. When he found out about Heather, he was the only one who said "What's going to happen to Emi? She's being growing up with all this crap, she's probably already emotionally scarred from being through all of this." He even cried.

Then I found out my brother, Charles, is into porn... you know, he shoots it. And he's gay. I think he would've been different if everything else in his childhood was. I remember the last time I had a conversation with him, he told me that he missed me a lot and he wished things were different and he could be with the family. David's always asking how I'm doing, I miss him. We were close when he was living with us.

Today though took a load of me, I found out I can talk to Brittany without burdening her. She lives a life similar to mine. And then I've managed to hook my ex, Denis up with my other friend Nicole. Maybe he'll stop stalking me.

But then when I got home, everyone was fighting again. And I was told I can be a bitch and hate and treat my mother like shit, because she's used to it. I'm not treating her like shit. I just choose not to talk to her because she can't listen to me and she hasn't considered what my feelings since July... or ever.