just kinda floating...

Mar 04, 2008 - 10:03 AM PST

It’s hard to define where I’m at spiritually in my life, and it’s even harder to say how I got to this point. A few years ago I made the decision to go to bible school because I wanted to do something for God, I wanted to live out my faith. So that’s what I did when I went on three mission trips to South Africa and did a youth camp one summer, while getting a theology diploma. Over the majority of that period I had some kind of joy for living life. Skies were blue and I was where I was supposed to be in life.

Fast forward almost three years later and I’m almost the polar opposite. Life most times seems to drag on, I’m considerably less proactive, and my faith is weak. Of course, a lot has happened in my life to spur on a lot of this, but I’m beginning to be unsatisfied. But rather than make an emotionally charged decision to live out my faith, I’d rather address the issues behind my lack of faith and then find my niche in life… in dallas… anywhere really. The problem is that this plan so far hasn’t panned out…

So until then, I suppose I’ll just be floating… just like I have for the past few years.