lack of envy

Feb 25, 2008 - 17:35 PM PST

why does something always have to be wrong, just because i dont feel like talking doesnt mean my world is crashing in.. although I always feel like my world is crashing in, i just dont want you to know, i dont want to talk about it with you, i dont want you thinking you can solve all my problems or fix me. That is the first thing i ever hated about you. I AM ONLY AS BROKEN AS I ALLOW MYSELF TO BE get it through your head.

Yesterday was horrible for me and you didn't even acknowledge my pain. You didn't ask me if I was ok, You didnt even remember even after I had spoke of it a few weeks before

you will never survive in my life because you don't get me and you don't even try to. I am not like you, I have never had the perfect life. I have never had my worst problems being that "I may not live up to what my parents want." GROW SOME BALLS MY FRIEND, GROW SOME BALLS

Even with everything I have been through I do not envy you. You are a passionless shell of a boy who has no idea what you want from life.. you will never see life in the colors that i see it, you will never feel pain the way I feel it.

I DO NOT ENVY YOU