Leaking Out Through the Mind

Dec 18, 2007 - 21:38 PM PST

maybe this sort of reasoning isn't what i have been best at:
i distort a murky sense of self.
to shatter a vain reflection of thinking.
that perhaps what i really want is just to feel.
something.
everything.
all at once.
to be overwhelmed and irreversibly numb.
or maybe i feign to think that perhaps it is human nature.
should i try a sip or immerse myself into a graphic world full of color?
but it seems to come back down to the option.
that there is no option.
there is only me.
and in the end perhaps we are all selfish for wanting what we want.

a crimson tone to the underworkings of using for your own gain.
and i join the game.
here we are:
children
pushing each other off of this fast-spinning carnival ride.
laughing.
falling.
crying.
getting back up again.
and crawling back on.
maybe i am too aware and maybe i am ignorant.
i want to be done.
i am too old for this.