Life

Mar 01, 2008 - 16:53 PM PST

So I was just thinking about how I'm pretty much getting harassed by immature idiots at school. They think they're so cool by talking about me 24/7 and making inside jokes about me, pushing me and yelling in my face. What are they thinking when they're doing that? Seriously. Do they think I'm coming home and crying about it, do they think they're really making me sad? Do they think they hurt me? Who lives to hurt people purposely anyways? I guess they do. But it's not even hurting me so they're not really doing a good job. It's been going on for over a month, my boyfriend tells me to go to the guidance counselor. I tried once, he wasn't there, I tried a second time, he was out sick. So maybe the 2 times I did try and he wasn't there happened for a reason? I asked one of my friends if she thought the counselor could really even do anything about her. She said she didn't know because the girl that's harassing me is pretty tight with them. No suprise, she's a mess, she probably talks to the counselor all the time. And she told me it would probably make things worse because it would be like I was telling on her which is pretty much true. I just hate this girl so much. She ruins my days, I try not to let her but she does it without doing anything. I really don't like being paranoid walking down the halls afraid I'm gonna get jumped on or something. Her words mean nothing, she can call me whatever she wants. Her words have no effect on me at all. She's someone I hate, why should I care what she thinks? Or what anyone thinks for that matter. All I need is me. These people won't be in my life forever so why care what they think of me now? The only opinions I truely care about are the people I know will be in my life for awhile. They're the ones who know the real me and if they call me out on something or we get in an argument, it's not something I just walk away from, it's something I'll listen to and it'll hurt me and i'll try my best to fix it. Anyways, WHAT THE HELL DOES SHE THINK SHE'S DOING? She hates me so much..why am I her favorite subject in school and even out of it? I don't talk back because she's not worth it. She's too immature and she wouldn't listen anyways. It's just really sad and quiet annoying. Me and her used to be friends when we weren't even suppost to be. I did nothing personally to her, She just doesn't like how I am I guess? I did something she doesn't approve of. Did I ask for her approval? It was none of her business. And for the other thing she hates me for, I can't even comprehend how she could be so cold-hearted. She thinks she has the right to tell me I made something up that in reality, hurts me everyday and is a big part of who I am. Most of the people who read this..if any..won't understand what I meant by that. People close to me will. If you really care you can ask me. Anyways, this girl is horrible and she's stuck in middle school. She thinks she's so badass with the name calling and pushing, but really..she's immature. I won't retaliate. We're almost adults and she's acting like that? I won't stoop to her level. The only reason she truly bothers me is because she's just an annoyance, she makes my boyfriend mad and it just makes me sad that I ever was friends with her. She lacks intelligence and she sits there and thinks she's so much better then me. But really, I'm better then her. I did nothing to her and she's just looking for drama, who looks for drama? Stupid hypocrite, she always said she hated it. She could easily stop it but I guess her life is that pathetic. She will never be one of my friends again, she's a sad excuse for a person.