Meaning?

Jan 02, 2008 - 20:52 PM PST

So I'm sitting on the floor, changing the strings on Stella (my acoustic guitar) just thinking about stuff. And my thoughts get a little bit deeper until I start to question the meaning of my life.

What am I doing on this earth? I mean, I go to school, dance on some days, church on sundays and it's been that way for as long as I can remember. I feel like a zombie sometimes. Like my body is living but my soul is not.

I just wish that I could find a reason to live. Something that would give me meaning to wake up and get out of bed in the morning because right now I'm stuck looking at Tyson Ritter's sweet face to coax me out of bed.

So I guess I'm just saying, how do you find that something to live for? And when do you find it? Because I need that feeling of happiness and love that is real.