memories of a life we never had

Feb 28, 2008 - 00:40 AM PST

This will end badly. Near exhaustion, you tell me about times you’ve cried.
You say that I’m adorable, I tell you I’ll age.
You say that I’m smart, I tell you that I can’t do percentages.
You say that I’m funny, I tell you that sometimes I am too serious.
You say that I’m cute, I tell you I’m manipulative.
You say that you like me. I tell you thank you.
I’m mean and distant. Easily bored and you were just supposed to be a distraction.
You like cats and I like dogs, this would never work.

Because you are realistic, I ask you to tell me how this ends… and you tell me you don’t care.
And for one moment, I can be honest. I don’t care either.
You are everything I didn’t know that I wanted.

And in my dayreams we are in the same class, passing notes to eachother , I am shy and you are inappropriate.
We are friends and lovers, we are enemies and allies.
In my daydreams we are in the 3th grade learning division, I am lost and you rescue me.
We are having a spelling test and I help you cheat.
We walk home together and we hold hands.
You’re the first kiss I ever have.
And on prom night I sneak you into my room.
I visit you when you are on leave,
And you don’t cheat on me.
After we graduate we get great jobs
You let me name all of our kids.
We fight sometimes, but you don’t stop talking and I don’t walk away.
You still want to hold me, and I don’t pull away.
I learn how to cook your favorite foods and you like the way I drive,
You buy me orchids on my birthday.
And every 4th of july we watch a bizillion fireworks.
And on christmas you eat all the cookies the kids put out,
You grab me and tickle me, I laugh and you don’t let go.
You are everything I didn’t know I wanted.
I don’t want to destroy you, but I might.
You don’t want to make me cry, but you might.
And by might- I mean yes, definitely .