movies, migraine, counseling

Mar 08, 2008 - 19:08 PM PST

So I am obsessed with watching movies and probably a week or two ago (no sense of time anymore so I'm not sure when), I was watching Mighty Joe Young on tv. Well, I started watching in the middle of the movie and now it's on again but on a different channel. I again missed the beginning, but only 10 minutes. To me, I like to have a distraction and although I should spend time reading (I have so many books that I want to read but haven't and probably 7 that I've started but haven't finished), or working on my take-home midterm (for family counseling - I'm grateful it's take-home because I've jumbled all the theories in my head), today was day 2 of migraine. Well, sort of.

I woke up and the migraine was gone, but 6 hours later, it had come back full blast so I took my actual prescription this time and took a nap with an ice pack. I woke up groggy and confused and (as I always call it) foggy. I call it foggy because I don't have complete understanding and everything takes extra time to compute. Walking is an adventure because I look/feel drunk, well, maybe not feel since I've never been drunk. But I certainly can't walk straight and have fallen down. To look at things, I end up turning my head instead of ever using my periphery.

Anyways, back to movies. I have a lot of them. Currently, I put Fever Pitch into my dvd player but haven't started it yet since I found MJY on. I actually bought a set of Drew Barrymore moview last year but haven't watch FP yet. So I still have yet to see this movie. I think it's partially because it's Red Socks. I may not be a Yankees fan, but I'm not a Red Socks fan either. I'm a National League girl. I actually have a bunch of movies that I haven't seen. I buy them and then don't have time to watch them and then am not inpired to watch them. Of course, then there are the movies that I'll probably never watch again, such as Y Tu Mama Tambien. That movie was really strange. My friend loved it, and we talked about it for a few years, so I got it and then wasn't as thrilled by it as she was. I wasn't such a fan of With Honors or of Friends With Money, but I own them. I never get rid of movies. I figure that I can give them a second chance. If a movie is cheap and sounds interesting, I'll buy it. If it's a good price, I've never heard of it, but I like an actor or actress in it, I'll buy that too. I've gotten a lot of movies that way.

Returning to Mighty Joe Young. He just saved the little boy and last time I watched, I was crying, even though I knew it was going to happen. I saw this movie when it first came out, and I think we have it on tape so I've seen it a bunch of times. So even though I know what happens, I'm a girl and I feel emotions too much. Not too good as a counselor since I need to keep that part of me locked up from clients. I have a difficult time refraining from crying when my clients cry. One client is really receptive to this and has commented on it and said it's ok and a good thing, but it really isn't when counseling.

But do I really want to stop being emotional? To stop feeling for people? To keep keep a straight face when someone is crying? I can understand it when they're angry or screaming because it can help to calm them down, but crying or upset? Yeah, avoidance of crying with my client is a good thing, but if I get too good, can I really compartmentalize it so that it's just at work and that I can still cry with my mom or my sister when they need me?


On a completely separate note, to quote Jill Young (Mighty Joe Young) Legends live on forever