My Decision

Mar 27, 2008 - 21:37 PM PST

I have decided...
I want to be a different person. I want to escape my old life, where I always felt confused and unwanted. I am leaving that person behind. Or, at least I want to. I keep telling myself that I need to change, but it's so impossible when I get down to it. I dont know how to change, and what's more - I'm afraid. I'm afraid of changing into something that people will like even less. And to get even more complicated, what to change to? What am I now, and what is it about me that I feel like I need to change? Why do I keep wanting to change my hair, is it the very fact that I define myself by my hair? Or is it that everyone else is doing it? Everyone else drastically changes their hair and suddenly little miss wannabe is wanting to chop off six inches of blond and dye whats left a deep shade of brown. Tell me, who do I think that I am? Is it my depressing attitude? People don't enjoy depressing people, but they can escape. They can escape me. I can't.