My first writing, yeah?

Mar 25, 2008 - 15:07 PM PST

I am 24 years old and I still am trying to figure out the answer to that question that I was asked as a child, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" Of course then my answer was an Astronaut or Indiana Jones, I still wouldn't kind either. But I am working on my degree to teach social studies to kids. I am not saying that I do not want to teach, I have for the most part enjoyed my experiences working in the schools. But that is not all I want to be. I want more than just that. Write a book perhaps, but abut what? I have tried many times, but either lose interest or end up not liking the idea. Fame is not something that I think I can achieve, unles I kill someone or change the world. There are so many places I would love to go and see, but realistically I will be lucky to see 10% of them. I want to be that guy that drops everything for a cause I believe in, but when the moment arises I decide that it is not worth it. I do not want this life that I have seen where people wake up, go to work all caffinated, come home to taking care of bills or family responsibilities, followed by primetime TV, topped off by going to bed where I might have sex that I am too tired for. It isnt that I am against having that in my life, but I do not want it to be my life. My thoughts of alternatives to teaching have ranged from ministry to running for an office. Both being problematic, since I have been known to speak the truth, as I see it, even when I know most disagree. I do not think I ven want to grow up in some cases. The idealism and hope that comes with the innocence of childhood seem to important to give up to join the "real world". Yet it seems that everyone around me is just giving in. They are becoming the person they will be at 30. But i want to be the person at 30 who is still becoming the person that I will be at the end of my time here on this planet, or Mars if that is an option. So I guess the answer is that I want to be me when I grow up.