My Love sucks!

Aug 17, 2008 - 21:55 PM PST

MY LOVESUCKS!
I can't understand myself..everytime i was about to fall for someone...i always make a sudden stop..
So basically others will think of me as a player..heartbreaker..and numb!!!
I don't know why i'm like this...but the last time i felt good about love was when i was with Michelle, ..she's my ex-girlfriend and she dumped me after we just had our anniversary.After that my whole life just turn into pieces and seems like i'm walking dead. I really loved her with all my heart and i thought she's feeling the same thing towards me..It made me realized not to trust your own feelings...It's almost 2yrs and a half and still i haven't into a relationship after we broke up...how pathetic i am..I dated some girls but nothing compares the feelings i used to feel for her and that made me sick and tired of trying to be with someone when i know for a fact that i'm still stuck on her...I wanna be with her but i know that she's happy now and having me with her life might ruin everything..I don't really know what to do...and i can't understand why loving someone so much is not enough for them to stay in your life....™