Nerdy blogging about absolutely nothing interesting.

Apr 11, 2008 - 20:59 PM PST

Nothing. Empty.
My life is, somehow... i don't achieve anything these days. I officially calling myself a geeky no-lifer. I quit school a year ago, and i am poor. I cannot afford going back if i only work on weekends, and that drives me angry.

I recently asked my mom if she would pay my school as she promised, and she said: "why don't you ask your dad."
Story is I left to my dad's home six months ago because she asked me a 400$/month rent for a tiny room. She dared. She dared after i lend her 16 950$ so she can buy a house. That was a little more than two years ago and i still did not get a penny back in my pockets. So you can imagine why i left my mom's place... if i stood there a few days more, the place would have looked like it was shelled.

Little did i know, it's even worse now. She started renovating. a brand new wooden floor in the basement, landscaping, flowers, all this stuff.

Where the F*(*"$& is my money?

I escape reality as much as i can. I game a lot. i play countless hours of Counter-Strike when i am not working. I'm about to turn 20 and i only have 1 person in my life deserving the "real friend" status.

I don't have a girlfriend anymore, and everytime i find someone she turns out to be either plain stupid or she uses me for her personal little subconscious devious plans. I Hate hypocrits, I hate liars, I hate when they call 7 times a day, and above all I hate stupid people.

Doesn't that narrow my search field to a nanoscopic fraction of the female kind? I unfortunately am aware of that, and i can't change it.

I still find life is a beauty in its entity.
I don't hope for things to get better, i change them to suit my needs.
I'm in a terribly depressing part of my life, and i'm not letting go.
I thwart life and it's malicious ways of making any human angry or depressed.

I sound like a total nerd.
And if people don't like it, they're simply not worthy of my company.

rawr.

Didier