no future

Mar 10, 2008 - 12:01 PM PST

My biggest concern is that I have no future ahead of me. I would like to make a difference, and I volunteer and do small things but realistically I need to have a job to do that. I have been looking for an internship this summer and I actually got a company that was looking for marketing interns which I thought would be great for me because they helped charities all over the world. Then when I went to shadow for a day I realized that their "marketing" intern was those said people who stand outside of stores begging people to buy things to support a charity. Although I probaly would do this for a day or two to support the community how can I go to school and get a four year degree and then sell toys on the side of a store? It was crazy, but I don't think I have much of a choice of what to do because I am not an intelligent student. What I mean by that isn't that I'm not intelligent it just means I have a horrible time sitting down and studying math formulas for hours when I could be doing anything else. I try, but just seem to not be able to do it and end up staring into space for hours. If it was something pertaining to work I would do fine, I have always been a really hard worker but school is horrible for me. I am starting to think that I have no future at all unless I want to be in retail. I have a bunch of management-trainee programs recruiting me, but I think that would be absolute hell for me. Listening to customers complaints and than dealing with the districts ect. but I'm starting to think that I don't have any choice in the matter.