not to be a debbie downer and get all morbid, but...

Mar 02, 2008 - 20:10 PM PST

ive been seeing my grandfather a lot lately.


and what i mean by seeing him, is seeing him in people, in places, everywhere.


my grandpa passed away when i was in 7th grade. which was about 10 years ago.


and its okay, because ive moved on. you know, i mean not completely, apparently, but nobody every really does move on from knowing and remembering and loving a person.


ive been through a whole lot in the past year. really though within the past three years, since high school ended. like i referred to in a previous entry, after high school, my life kind of snowballed. i dont know entirely how it happened, but im just now getting back to the old Dana and getting back on my feet.


i think maybe im "seeing" him as a source of comfort? Im not doing it intentionally. Its more like, when im at a stop light, the car behind me has a passanger that i could swear on my life that it is my grandfather, but obviously, it isnt. at first, i wasnt sure if i should be disturbed by it, or embrace it as a sign of someone watching over me.


thruthfully, im still not sure.


i could sit here and pretend i understand it, but i dont.


on a lighter note.
i hope to get a video up on here sometime tomorrow. a little voice in my head tells me i should post a video of me singing, because i kind of want to share it and hear how much i suck, purely for entertainment. hahaha=) no but mostly to be talking 'unscripted' as i guess i could say. because when you're typing a blog,most people tend to delete and re-word things, i know i do because i think things dont sound right. but i like the idea of not being able to delete or re-do or edit because i have no idea how to yet hahaa.


well i hope your day has been beautiful so far!
goodnight



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