Note To Self

Mar 06, 2008 - 12:17 PM PST

When closing Excel: "Would you like to save changes to Book 1?" usually means that you're an idiot if you hit No. *bangs head on desk* Two hours of work on my company's Database just went down the hole because I got distracted and forgot to save. It's a humbling thing when you're a computer geek and make such an amateur mistake. You tend to get a big head the more and more people who don't know much about technology call you a genius because of the simple things you picked up over life and from working in IT. But then you do something like that and it's a great reminder that even you can make stupid computer mistakes. *dies* So now I'm back to block one.

That's ok. I'm only here until May 16th anyways. Then I get to literally be a Homeless Intellectual, not just be in a Club for them. So, I'm on the search for an entry level Marketing/Advertising position. I have to admit I'm a bit scared, though, as I assumed that this internship would actually teach me things, and it has done anything but that. I have literally no experience, and I don't even finish my classes until the middle of June, so why anyone would hire me by May, I seriously don't know. Granted, past April I only have one class to take and pass before officially being a Florida Gulf Coast University Graduate. But the market in Florida is down, and I'm seriously worried about my ability to find even a crappy job that will give me experience in my field. I mean, I've seriously considered the fact that the guys in IT keep saying there may be an open position soon, but even when I get excited about it I can't help but remember a few core things:

First, it's most likely not going to be Full Time, and if it were they'd be considering Jon, who's a CS major, not a Marketing major.
Second, Even if it were Full Time, AND I miraculously obtained the position, it wouldn't give me any experience. So, two years from now when my dream job at Big Idea Productions, Inc. opens up and I apply, they're going to look at me and go "And you've been doing what, exactly, for the past two years?" I'll have, in my industry's mind, wasted the time since I got out of college, not have learned anything about the industry, and be useless.

*Sighs* I don't know. I really want a job with a Christian company, like a church, or Big Idea, or even a local Christian radio station. But churches need experience, or aren't looking for marketing (most have other companies do it for them, I guess), Big Idea isn't hiring, and the local stations aren't hiring either. So I'm left with finding a filler until then. My other dreams include Scotland (can't do that until Jamie (the boyfriend) graduates), and Google, only hiring for CA or NY. I just entered into a lease for a year (well, technically I can get out, but I can't afford the move or an apartment on my own in CA or NY), and once again, don't want to leave Fort Myers until Jamie graduates.

BLARG! I wish growing up didn't suck so much.