obviously

Mar 13, 2008 - 21:43 PM PST

clearly staying up late when i have school in the morning is the stupidest thing i can do at the moment. yet i keep it up night after night and then i am a zombie when i wake up. if i wake up on time, that is. my alarm clock is the most obnoxious sound i have ever heard in my life.

does this mean i'm self-destructive or just dumb?
or am i just the biggest procrastinator ever?
and is procrastinating self-destructive. i'm going to have to say yes. procrastination is what has set me off track for the past year. i blame the internet. i blame my friends. i blame...myself. i can only blame myself. i wasn't like this at all last year. i don't quite understand what happened. all i can think of is that it has to be some sort of self-destructive side of myself who for some completely inconceivable reason wants me to fail in life. why??

now i'm going to stop. and now i'm going to go finish my work and go to sleep. wish me luck.

peace.