Ok, the truth? Well...

Dec 27, 2007 - 18:50 PM PST

ocuments and Settingsjustin.morrisMy DocumentsMy PicturesAll PhotosMisc.Family PhotosMisc.Family Photos 021">Since I can't seem to spill my guts very well in real life, I guess I'll try to spill it out online to people I don't know. I wonder why it seems easier? I mean, I could keep a journal that no one would see (which I've done before). Maybe it's because I want someone to know and care about what's going on in my life, but I'm scared to try to find people that will listen, or maybe it's because I'm scared they won't listen that I post my ramblings online like this.

Anyway, my life is about as chaotically normal as anyone else who is 31 years old with a wife and 3 boys trying to make ends meet financially and still be a good parent/husband (or wife). What is it that draws people to other people? Where does the magnetism come from? I hate being alone. Well, I take that back. I sometimes absolutely LOVE being alone, but I hate being alone overall. Before I was married, I didn't like going home to an empty bed at night. I didn't like not having someone to talk to (even though I still struggle with that on occassion). Have you ever had someone that was too close for you to talk to them (maybe because they know you too well)?

I'm a little discouraged with life right now. I was voted "most changed" at my high school reunion. In other words, the person that had gained the most weight. I was a skinny kid (5'10" 140 lbs.) in high school and college, and now I'm 232 lbs., and it sucks!! It is tough to diet. Please tell me out there that you agree it is tough to diet!

I am ready to make a change though. I think I'm going to try and make a written plan, and then just stick to the plan every day.

Ok, so.... in my life .... there's my wife, Holly, whose picture I will attach at the bottom, along with my boys - Gabriel (8), Malachi(5), and Judah(2). I have a varied assortment of friends. My friend Matt who I went to Bible college with. Oh ya, Bible college. I'll blog about that one at another time (very interesting stuff that I'm sure you people would LOVE to get your thoughts in on). We have been through the in's and out's of being ridiculed both by fellow Christians and non-Christians alike. We are two brothers that have been through the thicket of life and have crawled out bleeding and bruised on the other side together. He's a great guy, and witty as hell, too.

My friend Alan, who is my poker buddy. We mostly just do stupid stuff and hope our wives don't get too mad when we try to hide it from them, and end up telling them anyway. He's a riot to be around, though.

Ah, I feel like I'm blabbing on about nothing right now, so I'll call it a night. Have a gr8 night out there, quarterlifers!!