one of those days...?

Mar 30, 2008 - 18:00 PM PST

so... do you ever have those days... when you are surrounded by quite a few people, but you still feel like you are all alone...

i have been having that feeling a lot lately... i walk around like in a trance or something... like something has entered my brain and told me to pretend like i am someone else...

i don't know why but i think i am getting used to it... and i would like to be alone rather than be with friends or family...

i can hear people around me talking and i may laugh or give a small laugh, but i really have no clue what they are talking about... and i feel no need or care to even want to know what they are saying... i don't have too much to say these days either... and i feel like all these thoughts are screaming at me inside of my head-- but i have no way to get them out...

so i guess this is how i am getting them out and hopefully i will be able to get them to quit screaming... and i am afraid that if i don't come out of this trance, i will lose some of my friends, because they don't quite understand what is going on inside of this weird world of mine...