Persuasion

Jan 07, 2008 - 10:55 AM PST

I made a note to myself to write about persuasion. Then I forgot exactly what I was thinking about at the time. I should learn to make better notes to myself. I'll make something up anyway.

Today I interview for a job. A job I never thought I'd want to take. I've mentioned it here somewhat. The place is wrong, the financial situation is wrong, the social sitution is wrong.

I am persuaded through time that I want to date this guy, and although he's likely visiting me in a few weeks I have doubts that we'd ever actually start to date long distance.

I am persuaded though to take this job. It is likely all wrong still, but I had lunch with a friend the other day, and feel my competitive and somewhat cocky nature taking hold. I could do this job very well. I'm more confident in that. I could save money in this city, the cost of living is 25% lower than the national average from that best cities site. I could find recognition in my field and I could write my ticket to any corner of the country I want to go to within five years. I could not only save money, but also travel abroad. I could recreate myself a hundred times over. I could compete in this cities triathlons and visit mountains often (I can't think of a better place to be than surrounded by grand peaks). I could do all of this.

But more than being a competitive person, I am an emotional person I think, and the chance to turn this friendship into something more calls to me. Perhaps it is a mistake to think that way. But maybe it is a mistake not to think that way.

As always, the decision lies solely on my shoulders. I am persuaded to contradict myself. Sometimes I feel the weight of Atlas' burden.