relationships

Mar 12, 2008 - 18:14 PM PST

So lately I have been hung up and this guy and its really pathetic when you think about it. I've been waiting and looking on AIM to see if he's on and then when he is I'm waiting to see if he's going to IM me and for what really? Would that give me approval that he's into me? and the weird part about this whole thing is that I'm not even really attracted to him and everyone around me thinks we should hook up. but should we? I have been contemplating this issue for a while now and it's just starting to get old and yet I am still hung up on him. And I really do wanna be in a relationship but then I see my bestfriend going through problems with her boyfriend and maybe thats making me shutdown a little because I dont want to be hurt like she was and then theres the whole trust issues or well the lack there of from previous relationships and I just close myself and i guess that comes from fear. well thats my rant for now. now maybe ill start a video blog lol